stars and such

It's been a long time. I feel like that's a song...one that goes like 'its been a long time since i rock nd roll', or some shit. I was gonna say 'something' right then...instead of some shit, cuz im trying to stop cursing nd all...cuz cussing isnt all that kosher, but then i was like 'nahcuz' cuz im not sure that wud convey what i was trying to say...ANYWAY.

So, yesterday was father's day. that's cute. I wonder if i should have done more to honor my father (haha, that sounds like an excerpt from the bible, or some...thing). For the past several years, my sisters nd i would buy some socks or some ties, that is, our mom bought all those things and then had us present them to daddy with a huge smile nd shit...nd stuff, rather. He's not all that into presents though, i mean he appreciates that we care enough to make cards and have our mom buy presents, but because it all seems kind of fake, he just doesnt like the idea all that much...thats what ive gathered over the past several years.

One time we bought him some lame hat that read 'number one dad' or something, and probably some socks as well. So, my sisters and i gave him the gift and he was all like 'thank you' but in a not so thankful way, if you know what i mean. He didnt care for the gift that much. I dont blame him though, afterall, it was a lame hat and some socks. The whole giving him a gift on father's day and acting like perfect little angels for a day...well, for like 30 mins out of the day, is kind of silly. It's silly because otherwise, we're all rowdy bitches. Well, not bitches, but we sure are hella loud. That is, about every 15 mins, someone is fighting with someone, or we're all real happy and loud and obnoxious...because we're that happy...you know how that is. Also, we could do a better job of letting daddy know we appreciate him. He is a hella good father. Anyway, this year i sent him an ecard that basically said stuff about how we (my sisters and i) dont say thank you enough, for he does a lot for us. he really does. It was a nice lil ecard, it had sweet music and all. it was a nice lil ecard.

I woke up at 11 am, after ahving slept at like 5 am probably. So, i went to say good morning and a 'HAPPY FATHERS DAY DADDY!' to my dad, and he was like 'smile', but it was more like 'a lil grin...like a polite grin' and he was all 'so its fathers day and you wake up at this hour. you didnt even bring me food or anything...' You see, its sorta a tradition in my family to bring 'breakfast in bed' to the celebrant of the day...in bed. So yea, no one did that for my daddy this fathers day. At first i was like 'daddy say what' cuz, i mean, y would i wake up early to make breakfast for someone fully capable of making oatmeal for himself...but then i was like 'damn, thats the tradition' its just a nice thing to do...to show that you, well to show that we care. So yea, he made himself breakfast etc. Sigh, i still feel kinda lousy about that. Also, he said nothing about the e-card and he didnt email back a thank you or anything...i dont blame him though, he probably didnt believe the card...cuz we didnt really act all appreciative of him, especially yesterday. I digress, we are not horrible daughters, we all really love daddy, he knows this. Its just that sometimes, well a bunch of times, we act like we dont realize how much he cares about us.

On another note...sorta, what are you even supposed to get guys, or men, for gifts? I mean the socks and tie gig gets old after a while.

On another note, i saw the stars yesterday and the sky was a beautiful dark blue. I cant wait to go to 'Indiana Dunes' with alia and share with her the beauty that is the night sky above the beach...i cant wait to go to 'Indiana Dunes' and sleep in peace. I usually do sleep peacefully, but its different when its on a beach, under millions of stars...you know how that is.

I love.

<3