Because PhoenixPhest happened last night..

Because PhoenixPhest happened last night, I just have to say:

Woa. Before going, I wasn't particularly excited to see anybody from College, but I must say, I was pleasantly surprised at how good it felt to be in the midst of.."those people" again. Not just in the midst of, but making small talk with, catching up with, hugging, smiling, eating, and drinking with.."those people" ..who we can now call UChicago alums. WOO. that's kind of cool..in a GAY, totally chilling, but exciting sort of way.

Anyway, I thought I had a lot more to say about post-college living and how, even in just a few months, people seem to have grown up..but I'm over it..and this is life..progress..moving on..or not ..but still growing..up, old..

Baii

As promised, E-Zoo. on fire!

MiC

My love.

E lucevan le stelle ...
ed olezzava la terra
stridea l'uscio dell'orto ...
e un passo sfiorava la rena ...
Entrava ella fragrante,
mi cadea fra le braccia.

O! dolci baci, o languide carezze,
mentr'io fremente le belle forme disciogliea dai veli!
Svanì per sempre il sogno mio d'amore.
L'ora è fuggita, e muoio disperato!
E muoio disperato!
E non ho amato mai tanto la vita,
tanto la vita!
____

The stars were shining,
And the earth was scented.
The gate of the garden creaked
And a footstep touched the sand...
Fragrant, she entered
And fell into my arms.

Oh, sweet kisses and languorous caresses,
While feverishly I stripped the beautiful form of its veils!
Forever, my dream of love has vanished.
That moment has fled, and I die in desperation.
And I die in desperation!
And I never before loved life so much,
Loved life so much!

empire state of boom

Just in case you were wondering:

New York was fantastic, thank you. Not in the kind of way I expected, but nonetheless. First of all, I got to see two of my favorite people (on earth!)- Tolu and Nabila. EEEEP! and I met Alya! nuff said. Oh and I met soo many lovely Egyptians. God damn I need to learn Arabic. like today.

Bila's apartment building is beautiful-white, gold, spacious, modern and teeming w/ elegancies *not a word, but it should be. But what really blew me away was Columbia University's campus. What a fucking sexy piece of land. Bila and I were drooling, pretty much. and our visits made us want to do College again, so so badly! Cute little people doing cute little things like walking in packs, playing frisbee and thinking they've made "it," finally. I'm so proud of Tolu. I've also decided Columbia Law School is something worth fighting for. We'll see. I looked at an LSAT problem the other day and got a headache w/in 45 seconds. Sigh. It must've just been too late. I should study in the mornings and on lunch breaks, that way I'm not already exhausted from work. But hey, one day at a time. New York at night is a breath of fresh, hot, vibrant, desperate air.

On Sunday night, we went to a bar/night club in the meatpacking distrcit called 'Brass Monkey', I think. It was pretty much all I could ask for out of a bar/dance venue. Totally chill seating area wtih wooden, picnic style booths; good music, but not loud enough to limit conversation; dim-lighting; a roof-top deck; two-floors; attractive, polite, non-smelly  people who couldn't be bothered to be rude/pushy/obnoxious.

I guess I should mention that I also went to Electric Zoo, !!!!! Amazing..just amazing. Pics to come! Maxwell, Steve Aoki, Benny Bennasi...lights, cameras, so much action. so much dancing. so much neon. so much skin. so much love. so much fuck. *"Molly for President"*

I will move to NYC soon. I promise this to myself and Nabila. Cross my heart, hope to die, etc.

What an amazing piece of work (by my friend and lover, Mike Smith)

Tha Ma$taPiece--Mike's First Album.

SPF 100

Don't remember if I already told you about my time on the Island (aka, 'Raindance Music Festival'), but, for the record, it was grand! Buppy performed...I'd seen him do open mics, but nothing on this level before. The most beautiful thing was the setup- we were outside on an Island (illegally, I should add), the lights from the dj station were directed up at the trees, so imagine what it looked like when night fell!! There weren't many people there, but from the dance floor, it felt cozy and full enough. "...in that moment, I swear we were infinite" comes to mind. Totally sober. Totally rad. Totally unforgettable. You should know that we played beach volleyball and I was one of our team's MVPs, yippee! Buppy was so proud, Panda was impressed, and Ken said "good job, hun =)." Oh, did I mention, the court was in the IL freakin' River! It's funny to think that I was basically booed off the 7th grade volleyball team. Sigh..haha. I did suck at the time.

Anyway, I'm at work as usual. Studying for the written driver's test so I can finally have a valid state i.d. instead of toting around a pathetic excuse for a passport (I just got it a couple years ago, and it's pretty much empty =/..). It's kind of nice to be studying, if we're being honest. I miss school. I mean, work's fantastic...but something about studying for something is rewarding...that is unless I flunk this dumbass test. Which won't happen. But I'm just saying.

Tolu just told me a girl died at Columbia, which is tragic ofcourse, but also hilariously inappropriate. Yesterday being the first day of orientation and all...have I gotten so bitter that death doesn't phase me anymore? ...No, I'm fine...I swear.

I talked to Krisana yesterday for like 90 mins, all of which were awesome. She's so amazing..I love and miss her, just in case you didn't already know that. We talked about True Blood, life, college, relationships, and True Blood, which is just fuckin' fantastic, by the way. Why is everyone in my life pregnant? lol...

Okay, I'm bored.

Peace..

thanx Charlie

~tat?~

Haze-y

So, as if you didn't already know- I finished 'perks of being a wallflower' and loved it. The kind of love where you're furious it's over. But I guess the show must go on.  nd besides, it was getting to a pt. where reading perks was like the highlight of my day, which is pathetic. What's worse is that I've already forgotten the name of the main character, which is sad because I'm pretty sure he's my soulmate. Like in a very true sense of the word, not just like oh I love you and we get along sometimes so we're soulmates, but like I feel like we are one in the same soul kind of mate...

I've started reading 'War and Peace'...which is cool, because it's been on my reading list for abt a decade. I was like 7 pages in when I realized I had no idea what was going on nd I must've re-read those 7 pages like 3 times, but I kept getting distracted nd per usual, I got lost in the names. Sure I could keep referring back to the list of names and relations earlier in the book, but ...who has time for that. I'd like to think that, as was the case when I read Anna Karenina, the characters will grown on me nd soon enough it'll be difficult for me to forget names, relations, personalities nd etc.

I'm at work, which is great b/c I like my job, co-workers ..nd money. But being here reminds me that I'm silly and make stupid mistakes and that I need to study of the LSAT. Which I hate. even though it's fun working through logic games here and there, I feel like I'm back in the 11th grade studying for the ACT/SAT and I mean, eww.

So, I went out this weekend. with new friends, which is nice b/c I like them and it's abt time I started hanging out w/ girls again and ppl in general besides by home bunny, but like woa. I never thought that just b/c I'm 21 now I'd drink...but I do. sometimes. nd that'd be fine if I had an idea of how much it takes for me to get drunk. Don't get me wrong- I didn't get shit-faced or black out, but I definitely was drunk. nd that's interesting, but sort of trashy. nd not really me. I hope.

I'm uber excited to go to NY and see Tolu and Bila and other lovelies, I hope. The last time I was there, buppy nd I had an amazing time (Read: Erykah Badu, Lauren Hill, Wu-Tang, Talib Kweli, Most Def, ferry rides, Korea Town, the Hudson River, Ground Zero...all in less than two days). This time, I want to experience more night life wonders, chill, hang out, dance, dance, dance and smile. and shower at some pt. Mostly, I want to savor the days I'll be spending w/ Tolu who'll be starting at Columbia soon. OMG, my little sister is going to college in NY. Oh lawwwwd. I hope, for her sake, that she loses herself a little and discovers what it means to live in the moment...sometimes. I mean, she has to get top grades nd shit nd get into an amazing med school and make a ton of money just in case shit doesn't work out for me, lol. It's good to have little sisters who worship the ground you walk on ;). SIKE..only Tan Tan does. Which is adorable.

I wonder what it'd be like to have a brother.

I love Michael Brian Smith. He's my pride and joy and buppy. forever.

Still on that Kafka shit.

"What have I in common with Jews? I have hardly anything in common with myself and should stand very quietly in a corner, content that I can breathe."

Fried-days

Finally reading 'perks of being a wallflower'. Yippee! Not through reading, but it's already in my top 5 fave books.

I've decided to start using capital letters and proper punctuation in my writing again. I hope this doesn't mess up my stream-of-conscious-eqsue-ness.

I've also found that I actually have a problem with money. Spending on a whim. Never saving enough money for the things I actually need to pay for. Sigh, is this real life? Dad?

The final Dark Knight movie came out today! I'm excited to see it w/ the boyf tonight. I mean, it won't be the same w/out you know who, but we don't talk about dem things.

Lil's sis is moving to Columbia in about a month. That just blows my mind. I mean, Tolu...in the Biggest Apple??--the fuck. Why is it that my sis, one of my closest friends and just about half of my graduating class is moving/has already moved to NY? Also, what is it about the big city that makes people feel so small yet so big and alive all at once? All I know is I'm excited to visit soon!

OH MY GOSH, I've already bought my tickets to see Matisyahu on the 7th of August. Couldn't be more excited. I need to listen to his new CD, but I'm afraid I may not like it as much as his last...b/c his last was so amazing...and what if he only sings his new stuff at this concert?! Sigh, I mustn't worry about such things I guess. It'll be a grande time either way.

I've been buying a lot of cute stuffs lately- clothes mostly! Next on my list: black gladiator sandals (b/c my pair got destroyed o_O); yellow doc martens; black skinny jeans; jeans in general; black semi-professional-looking skirt; not so professional looking skirts; oh! and ofcouse, a black cami. Oh, I guess I shouldn't buy so much black...nah, black is the new black!!

A plus tard.

In the meantime.

Oh, did I mention I graduated?!

Yes, yes. Hold the applause. It's really no big deal. I mean, that's not true. It is. But you don't need to make a big fuss about it.

Anywho, I'm working. And. I'm not about to complain about being employed or some shit. But damn. Whose idea was it to have us work 9-5 (or more!)? So strange. and it feels wrong, in some way. Like Marx was right. but I like my job, so I shouldn't feel like I'm investing my time in something meaningless.

I guess.

A plus tard. Yes, a + tard.

25 things you never knew had names

http://www.buzzfeed.com/daves4/25-everyday-things-you-never-knew-had-names