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lunes, 18 de julio de 2011
lunes, 13 de julio de 2009
throw some dees on that...
I can finally drive. I feel so grown :D.
Anyway, so it's that time again. Monday morning, that is. It always comes...well, at least until today. Usually, I'm not all that into the whole back to work business...haha, i mean, it's not all that exciting to quit lounging/chillin'/relaxin'...all cool and all shootin' some bball outside the school...unless i've been doing just that (chillin', that is) for quite some time. but, i mean i haven't... even though, my job is real simple, i still get up early 6 out of 7 days of the week...for work and church. But hey, i'm not complaining...i suppose it's nice to have a lil routine. Otherwise, i'd prolly get huge from lounging and eating and reading in bed all day.
I am determined to finish the book i've been reading for quite some time today. It is entitled 'Gifted Hands.' It's a nice read. That is, i'd recommend it to most. Especially, if you're into the whole rags to riches type books. This one is exceptional though, i mean the basic story line of the inner city kid making it big is ancient, but Ben Carson's story is kind of amazing...like most of those stories though, now that i think about it. Anyway, i'd still recommend it. I figured if i posted that i must finish the book today, i'd be more inclined to finish it... i dont know,... because i publicized the need to complete the task and if i didn't i'd be letting myself down more so than i would be if i just told myself i need to read it...although, this is somewhat of a diary...so really, i'm writing to myself...hmm, haha.
So, does this mean i'm talking to myslef...aloud? ...Actually, that's silly i'm not talking to myself aloud...duh,'cause i'm not saying anything...i'm just writing down my thoughts. ANYWHO.
Lately, i've been thinking about what i should be doing as far as relationships go. I mean, say i'm with someone...someone i really like, but it seems like a dead end relationship for some reason or the other. Well, not dead end...that kind of sounds terrible, but that based on some differences like religion, or more simply, what we'd both like out of the relationship, i don't forsee us going very far. Say we have a great time together and it's pretty much going on dates and getting to know each other more and more...as it should be, but he is afraid to commit. That's a legitimate concern right? yea, but even though i'm not expecting like a marriage promise or something that serious lol, ....because i'm only 18, should i be in a relationship with someone who really doesn't want to be in relationship because of this kind of fear to get emotionally attached? granted, he likes me obviously...if we are in this sort of relationship anyway, but considering he has voiced his opinions on this whole fear factor...should i just back out? I mean, after telling me he can't help but want to continue what we have because he likes me, but that he's made the mistake of getting too emotionally attached to a woman before, so he's real reluctant to involve himself too much with a girl...what the hell i'm i supposed to do?? I'd think the best thing to do would be to go with the flow and see where that takes us...and if it works out, great and if it doesn't...peace, BUT i'm not sure i can handle being in a relationship in which it'd be too forward to let myself get emotionally attached to a guy that is going to try and distance himself a little emotionally...see my dilemma? I mean, it's not that he doesn't open up or anything...he does, from time to time...at least a little. And for him to do even that considering how he's been hurt in the past means a lot to me, but i feel like because he thinks it wise to not set himself up for another heart break by being sort of casual with me... i have to return this sort of casualness by suppressing my feelings for the guy. i mean it's not that i like him more or something like that and the feelings are unrequited, it's just that i'm used to taking the risk of kind of giving my heart to someone i'm with...maybe that's too deep, lol. i guess what i'm saying is it'll be difficult for me ...well, be sorta casual...like i said before. *sigh*, i digress i suppose we'll just have to see where this goes...
I suppose i should get to reading that book...'cause i have to finish it today and all :)
<3
Anyway, so it's that time again. Monday morning, that is. It always comes...well, at least until today. Usually, I'm not all that into the whole back to work business...haha, i mean, it's not all that exciting to quit lounging/chillin'/relaxin'...all cool and all shootin' some bball outside the school...unless i've been doing just that (chillin', that is) for quite some time. but, i mean i haven't... even though, my job is real simple, i still get up early 6 out of 7 days of the week...for work and church. But hey, i'm not complaining...i suppose it's nice to have a lil routine. Otherwise, i'd prolly get huge from lounging and eating and reading in bed all day.
I am determined to finish the book i've been reading for quite some time today. It is entitled 'Gifted Hands.' It's a nice read. That is, i'd recommend it to most. Especially, if you're into the whole rags to riches type books. This one is exceptional though, i mean the basic story line of the inner city kid making it big is ancient, but Ben Carson's story is kind of amazing...like most of those stories though, now that i think about it. Anyway, i'd still recommend it. I figured if i posted that i must finish the book today, i'd be more inclined to finish it... i dont know,... because i publicized the need to complete the task and if i didn't i'd be letting myself down more so than i would be if i just told myself i need to read it...although, this is somewhat of a diary...so really, i'm writing to myself...hmm, haha.
So, does this mean i'm talking to myslef...aloud? ...Actually, that's silly i'm not talking to myself aloud...duh,'cause i'm not saying anything...i'm just writing down my thoughts. ANYWHO.
Lately, i've been thinking about what i should be doing as far as relationships go. I mean, say i'm with someone...someone i really like, but it seems like a dead end relationship for some reason or the other. Well, not dead end...that kind of sounds terrible, but that based on some differences like religion, or more simply, what we'd both like out of the relationship, i don't forsee us going very far. Say we have a great time together and it's pretty much going on dates and getting to know each other more and more...as it should be, but he is afraid to commit. That's a legitimate concern right? yea, but even though i'm not expecting like a marriage promise or something that serious lol, ....because i'm only 18, should i be in a relationship with someone who really doesn't want to be in relationship because of this kind of fear to get emotionally attached? granted, he likes me obviously...if we are in this sort of relationship anyway, but considering he has voiced his opinions on this whole fear factor...should i just back out? I mean, after telling me he can't help but want to continue what we have because he likes me, but that he's made the mistake of getting too emotionally attached to a woman before, so he's real reluctant to involve himself too much with a girl...what the hell i'm i supposed to do?? I'd think the best thing to do would be to go with the flow and see where that takes us...and if it works out, great and if it doesn't...peace, BUT i'm not sure i can handle being in a relationship in which it'd be too forward to let myself get emotionally attached to a guy that is going to try and distance himself a little emotionally...see my dilemma? I mean, it's not that he doesn't open up or anything...he does, from time to time...at least a little. And for him to do even that considering how he's been hurt in the past means a lot to me, but i feel like because he thinks it wise to not set himself up for another heart break by being sort of casual with me... i have to return this sort of casualness by suppressing my feelings for the guy. i mean it's not that i like him more or something like that and the feelings are unrequited, it's just that i'm used to taking the risk of kind of giving my heart to someone i'm with...maybe that's too deep, lol. i guess what i'm saying is it'll be difficult for me ...well, be sorta casual...like i said before. *sigh*, i digress i suppose we'll just have to see where this goes...
I suppose i should get to reading that book...'cause i have to finish it today and all :)
<3
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